16 Jun But you have invested much in your mask. (OSHO)
Changing outside things is not going to help. It is just like arranging the furniture in your room again and again. Whatsoever you do — you can put it this way or that way — is the same furniture.
Every person is in flux, is river-like. Persons are not dead things. How can they be the same? Are you the same? Between when you came this morning to listen to me and when you went back home, a lot has happened.
The old Heraclitus has said that you cannot step twice into the same river because the river is never the same.
You are not dull for no reason, you are dull for a certain purpose — if you were really alive then everything would be surprising and shocking.
If you become more aware, life will also become more alive, livelier, and there is going to be difficulty.
You always live with dead expectations.
Every day you come home and you expect certain behavior from your wife.
Now look how you create your own misery: you expect a certain fixed behavior from your wife and then you expect your wife to be new.
You are asking the impossible.
If you really want your wife to remain continuously new to you, don’t expect. Come home always ready to be surprised and shocked, then the wife will be new. But she has to fulfill certain expectations.
We never allow our total flux-like freshness to be known to the other. We go on hiding, we don’t expose, because the other may not be able to understand it at all. And the wife also expects the husband to behave in a certain way, and, of course, they manage the roles. We are not living life, we are living roles.
The husband comes home; he forces himself into a certain role. By the time he enters the house, he is no more an alive person — he is just a husband.
A husband means a certain type of expected behavior. The woman there is a wife, and the man there is a husband. Now when these two persons meet there are really four persons: the husband and wife, which are not real persons — just personas, masks, false patterns expected behavior, duties, and all that — and the real persons hiding behind the masks. Those real persons feel bored.
But you have invested much in your persona, in your mask.
If you really want a life which has no boredom in it, drop all masks, be true. Sometimes it will be difficult, I know, but it is worth it.
Be true.
Live more authentically.
Drop the masks; they are a weight on your heart.
Drop all falsities. Be exposed. Of course it is going to be troublesome but that trouble is worth it because only after that trouble will you grow and become mature.
And then nothing is holding life.
Each moment life reveals its newness. It is a constant miracle happening all around you only you are hiding behind dead habits. You have completely forgotten what your original face is. Even when you stand before the mirror in your bathroom and you are alone, nobody is there, even standing before the mirror you don’t see your original face in the mirror. There too you go on deceiving.
Existence is available for those who are available to existence. And then I tell you, there is no boredom. Life is infinite delight.
Ancient Music In The Pines
OSHO
