It\u2019s bedtime. Kneeling at the foot of my bed, head bowed, hands together, I murmur my prayer in a low voice. I\u2019m ten. After a brief review of the day\u2019s sins, I make a request of God, our all-powerful Creator. He knows how regularly I attend mass, how fervently I receive communion, how I love Him above all else. I simply ask Him, implore Him, to bring about the death of my father, while driving if possible. Brakes failing while he\u2019s going downhill, black ice, a plane tree, whatever suits Him best.
\n\u2018I leave the choice of accident to you, God, see to it that my father kills himself.\u2019<\/p>\n
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Brutal fathers have one advantage: they don\u2019t lull you with their gentleness, their sentimentality, they don\u2019t try to play at being big brothers or mates. They wake you up like an electric shock, make you someone who\u2019s eternally fighting or eternally oppressed. What mine passed on to me was his fury and for that I\u2019m grateful. The hatred he instilled in me also saved me. I sent it back at him like a boomerang.<\/p>\n
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\nPascal Bruckner<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"